I am home. The concert was amazing. Our seats were amazing. Regina was amazing. (The little point-and-shoot camera was not amazing, but at least I got a few pictures, even if they are blurry.) I am still gathering my memories and attempting to organize them in my brain.
It felt great to get away for a day and a night, to travel out of state, to shake up my routine. I realized that since becoming a Mom 2 years ago, I haven’t really done anything like that. In college I could make the decision to drop everything and run off to Boston, or to crash at a friend’s apartment, without any hemming, or hawing, or permission from anyone. Now it takes more planning, more debating, and more of a defined schedule, but it is definitely worth it. Everyone needs to get out of their daily life for an adventure now and again, even if only for a day.
I woke up this morning in my guest bed at my friend’s house, gathered myself together, and drove the hour home. As I finally rounded the corner onto my street a feeling of excitement jumped in my chest. I had a similar feeling in anticipation of the concert, but this time it felt even more impatient, because this time I was about to see my baby. I’ve been away from him for long chunks of days before. Back when I still worked at the coffee shop I would leave in the afternoon and not be there to tuck him into bed at night, and wouldn’t see him again until morning. Today was only a little bit longer than that. But there was something about the fact that I was not home when he woke up in the morning, that he was not the first person I saw in my day for the first time in ages…it made me incredibly eager to give him a squeeze.
I opened the door to our apartment and entered to silence. It was nap time already, and Jeramy was sneaking in a nap too, but I heard a little voice coming from Simon’s room. Without hesitation I opened his door and scooped him right out of his crib. He rested his head on my shoulder and hugged me back. I was filled with love. Later, I took extra time to rock him to sleep in my arms, taking in the full joy of the moment.
The dirty dishes, the crumbs on the floor, the clutter of toys strewn about…a night away transformed them into welcome comforts. One of the lyrics that I remember from one of Regina’s new songs was: “Love what you have and you’ll have more love.” She could not speak truer words.